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It’s a fine line, the truth.

There is her truth, his truth, their truth, the truth truth and your truth. Now that’s a whole lot of versions of the truth going around, don’t you think? 

Remember the gold/white-black/blue dress controversy going around a few years ago? For those of you who may not remember the controversy of this “Little Blue Dress”, here is a recap….

People across the nation were losing their minds about whether a picture that depicted a pretty little garden party dress was a certain color. The internet even had a great divide. It was divided by people firmly in two camps: the white and gold, and the blue and black – with each thinking the other is completely wrong.

The first step to reaching a truce in the dress controversy was to construct a demonstration that could show to the “white and gold” crowd how the very same dress can also look “blue and black” under different conditions. Now you can go and do your own research on the dress (Proceed at the risk of losing your own sanity!), because people are still stuck on being right and others being wrong on that one. Or you can save yourself the whole can of worms and trust me (Never trust anyone who says “trust me”!)  and check out this handy dandy graphic that might help clear up all of this “who is RIGHT” nonsense. It just may make some sense to you!  

No one was wrong. It’s just a matter of perspective!

So here’s the thing. We all see and believe things differently—and that’s okay. It is so very freeing when you can come from the perspective that we all have different perspectives and we don’t need to agree. We especially don’t need to prove how right we are, just to be right, when we already know the truth!

So let some air out of that ego. You’ll feel a big swoosh of relief and then you can use that extra air to puff up your wings for being so smart and taking the high road.

The truth is that we all have our own truth. I’ve covered this topic many times before. You are essentially responsible for you and only you! Your actions, how you behave and how you choose to treat others. You are your own Truth. No one can tell you what your truth is. Only you can know that!  If you don’t go within and get familiar with yourself, how are you ever going to know who you really are, who you came here to be and what you came here to do in that cute flesh suit you are wearing?  There are extraordinary teachers in the world. Find the ones that resonate with you, but be careful of pedestals they are put upon and your belief systems around them having all the answers or believing that they have it all together. The truth is, we are all freaks in flesh suits and no one gets out of here alive. Hopefully we’ll just ascend into the 5th dimension, but in the meantime…keep yourself zipped up and discover what’s going on inside of you. Sit with that. Does that feel right? Does that make your heart sing? If it does, chances are you are on the right flight path.

In the end, the whole thing is between you and the creator of all that is (god) or, source, and “schnitzel with noodles” (Oh wait–that’s the lyrics to “My Favorite Things” from the Sound of Music. Sorry. I’m hungry.). Okay. Well, you can call it whatever you want it to be. You’ve got to have some trust and faith that things are well-covered somewhere outside of yourself, so you can give these thoughts a rest, so you live resentment free and get on to keeping on what you came here to be. YOU! Living in your truth and authenticity!

Are you still with me?

No one has it all together. Everyone–and I mean everyone–here on earth has their inner knowing and that includes you!  Sometimes we just need help tapping into that knowledge and that’s where a good spiritual counselor like me comes in. We all need help and outside perspective, but we also need to listen. To be still, go within and listen. There is treasure there–lots and lots of it! We are all here for the human experience. So yes, look for teachers you admire, teachers that inspire you. Strive for those behaviors you want to emulate, but more importantly, go within and listen to YOURSELF! If you trust enough to ask for the answers, then you’ve got to be willing to trust the answers you receive or find another source that resonates with you until it feels like truth to you. You’ll know.

So the truth is, you can be right without needing to make anyone wrong (most of the time). You’re welcome! Capish?

And yes, the dress was blue …………. Who knew? Me, that’s who!  (It’s like the blue pill verses the red pill from the Matrix–but that’s another blog…)

The EDGE in this Angel with an Edge is there for a reason, people!

Until next time keep your Wings Up, your mind and especially your heart open.

I have faith in you!  

Elizabeth Lindsay is a clairvoyant spiritual light-warrior and counselor at  www.12listen.com Elizabeth is a creative soul whose life journey and passion has evolved into helping others empower themselves. Elizabeth has the innate ability to tune in and tap into your spirit guides and energy to offer clear concise answers and tools that give you a fresh perspective as well as raise your vibration. Elizabeth’s goal is to always help you get unstuck, move forward and leave her company feeling confident in the knowing that you are honoring yourself and your soul’s growth.  Be it a need for clearing a vibrational blockage, a quick answer, or an in-depth dive into the realms of possibilities she will help guide you into your personal power and strength

Earth Karma – Faith in a flesh suit!

Just what the heck is going on? We’ve got nuclear bombs, earthquakes, flooding, hurricanes, families and animals being displaced and fires galore. It’s a very overwhelming time right now, that’s for sure! Times are scary and there are a lot of frightened and fearful energies surrounding the collective consciousness right now. If you are feeling disoriented and are finding that you just can’t get gratification from things that use to comfort and ground you, trust me you are exactly where you need to be!  

So just why is this happening? I’d like to share with you what my tribe of guides and higher knowing has shown me. For months now we have been witnessing the dark bubbling to the surface it is doing this to be witnessed by all. If you listen to my weekly radio show you’ve heard me say this many times, “That we must witness this as a collective we must admit it exists on all levels only then can we even begin to heal it.” This means it literally needs to be peeled away and the old paradigms of how we have dealt with things in the past are crumbling away because they simply won’t work anymore.  All of this is a clearing for us and it is also a karmic clearing for Mother Earth. We, as spiritual beings in flesh suits are clearing out so many emotions. Many of you have been weeping (purging) or are overcome by great sadness (flooding) or shaken to our core (earthquakes) or feeling explosive (fire) and or witnessing explosive behaviors.  We are literally reinventing the world we live in and this is stretching everything and everyone in ways we couldn’t have even imagined a few short months ago. Mother earth is doing what she must do as well.

None of us want to see people suffering, its horrible to witness and its hard to understand that we are in a time of healing and peeling and releasing. Mother Earth is clearing out old energies too and the only way you can somewhat detach from this loss and bewilderment and not get caught up in the fear and chaos is it to see it from a soul level not as a human.  (Please know I am sending love and prayers to all directly affected by these occurrences and in no way am making light of some very serious issues)  This is a tremendous opportunity on our planet to choose how we are going to create our reality. We truly are being asked to be the center and calm of our own storm. As a human species our resilience is outstanding and so is our compassion we are just catching a glimpse of   the vast depths of both of these right now.

It’s important to remember that we don’t get to know everything, it’s not only not necessary for our soul growth, it doesn’t serve us. Imagine if you knew the outcome to everything, then you would be robbed of everything you came here to earth school to “EXPERIENCE” … it would literally rob you of your human flesh suit experience!

We need to step up and claim who we are and remember that we are connected we are not  separate we are all part of this big web of energy. We are all here for a reason, we are all a part of the puzzle…there is not one single person who is here that isn’t’ supposed to be here. Whether you like them or not, it’s not up to you to decide if they are valued or worthy of being here, they are here because it IS SO. That’s all you need to know!

This is where FAITH comes in I’m not talking about “religious” faith here, not there is anything wrong with that if that is what works for you but that doesn’t work for me.  My faith comes from my inner knowing that I am a sacred part of the creator of all that is, not separate from it. I  always start by asking myself, is this my highest  good and most direct line to source, and usually I get a yes and I know this by going within. I was given this soul for a purpose and it wasn’t to be a drone in the assembly line.. You are essentially responsible for you and only YOU knows your own truth. No-one can tell you what your truth is only you can know that!  If you don’t go within and get familiar with yourself how are you ever going to know who you are you really are who you came here to be and what you came her to  do in your flesh suit?

So you might be thinking who is she? What the hell is she talking about? If this doesn’t’ resonate with you I’m going to be the first person to tell you LET IT GO. You don’t have to agree with me you can even think I’m delusional it doesn’t matter to me because your opinion of me and what you think of me is none of my business.  There are extraordinary teachers in the world find the ones that resonate with you but be careful of pedestals they are put upon and your belief systems around them having all the answers or that they have it all together. No one has it all together everyone and I mean everyone here on earth is a “freak in a flesh suit” and that includes you!   We are all here for the human experience so yes look for teachers you admire that inspire you and strive for those  behaviors you want to emanate in yourself but more importantly go within and listen to YOURSELF!

If you trust enough to ask for the answers then you’ve got to be willing to trust the answer you receive or find another source that resonates with you. As a spiritual soul you came here to be a human, you can’t understand that this is a big clearing for humans and for mother earth. But it’s the whole human, cute flesh suit and un-remembering of who we are that screws everything up for us. We are all being called to stand up, keep our wings up, light up and stretch open our heart space and to wake up even more than ever before so we can remember who we truly are.  A bunch of spiritual beings in flesh suits learning to be physical and in this physicality remembering that we are actually all in this together on one very beautiful gorgeous planet that has been accommodating our collective unconsciousness for a very long time.

Social media the Internet, anonymous hateful trolling, unauthentic mind melting manipulating media aka most news is only heightening our stress and taking us away from our heart center and our inner knowing! We are not separate from money we are the money, we are not separate from our dream home we are our dream home, we are not separate from our neighbor we are our neighbor, all of this is just energy.

All of this matters, stepping up and adopting one homeless animal, gathering clothing, food and water for others. Some are donating money and some are donating their boats, cars and homes to be of service and of course all the light workers, light warriors or whatever you call yourself are coming forward in their strengths. You can be the queen of the fairies or the unicorns or the goddess with wings whatever floats your boat, all of this helps all of it matters even if you don’t think it is witnessed. Especially when it isn’t witnessed, it always is, energy doesn’t lie, energy is pure, energy carries a vibration and it creates the vibration of what we create to a great degree. That is what is expanding how we are showing up how we are choosing to behave.  Keep your heart open and breathe. Open your heart feel what feels good to you and stay there, create from there claiming your joy and your truth. Breathe as much love as you can into mother earth and humanity and yourself, that’s my plan for now.

That is enough for now.

Elizabeth Lindsay is a clairvoyant spiritual light-warrior and counselor at  www.12listen.com Elizabeth is a creative soul whose life journey and passion has evolved into helping others empower themselves. Elizabeth has the innate ability to tune in and tap into your spirit guides and energy to offer clear concise answers and tools that give you a fresh perspective as well as raise your vibration. Elizabeth’s goal is to always help you get unstuck, move forward and leave her company feeling confident in the knowing that you are honoring yourself and your soul’s growth.  Be it a need for clearing a vibrational blockage, a quick answer, or an in-depth dive into the realms of possibilities she will help guide you into your personal power and strength

 

Hello Gorgeous! (Yes YOU) Living on the edge has its rewards but having a little wings up from the universe is always helpful.

I intuitively interpret Life On the Edge scopes by tapping into my tribe of guides, my very own oracle of “Edge-isms”, a dash of tea leaf and coffee ground readings, a pinch of numerology, a spoonful of laughter and a heap of love!

Ahhh…September.
If you feel like your inner psyche has had been thoroughly cleaned then you are most certainly not alone. Most of us just went through a major wash and spin cycle in August and many of us feel a little disoriented. September arrives like a breath of fresh air and now that the dust is settling from the things we didn’t surrender, but were still swept away by the powerful eclipses in August, we can breathe a sigh of relief. The old paradigms are fading away. Think of September as a big reset button from the universe and it’s all to make room for the exciting new energies coming in this month.  Now is the time to embark on a new adventure and put your new dream into motion.

Here is your flight plan for the month…

ARIES:

If you are starting off this month feeling a bit burdened, the good news is that clearing stuff away will bring you some luck—especially in the social arena. Now is the perfect time for you to adopt a weekly clearing ritual like burning sage, incense or whatever works for you. Something new is coming in that brings certainty or clarity about what you are ready to let go of.  You have knowledge to give others this month and a woman could also be influential in a new beginning or fresh start. Thinking creatively with a new spin or reworking a project can give you clear sight on the choices that will only open for you after you take care of those pesky little details.

If something happens to be gnawing away at you concerning an encounter with a friend, it’s okay to go on your own journey for a little while and recoup instead of personalizing it. This could actually bring a nice boost to your friendship that you didn’t see coming.

If you’re concerned about finances, it’s probably just because you are confused about how everything is going to work out, so try that clearing ritual I recommend and see if things don’t just literally clear up! You are feeling passionate about communicating with friends and your social circle could take up quite a bit of your time this month. There is some success around taking good care of yourself, both physically and spiritually. Say yes to yourself Aries! Abundance creates more abundance and you are known for your rock solid generosity and big heart, so go ahead and splurge (a little).

It would serve you well to tap into your inner wisdom to get clear on this new commitment coming to you in September. Nurture those Lightbulb moments. They give your mind great exposure to seeing things in a new way. I see lots of talk around your passion or livelihood and it should be music to your ears.

 

TAURUS:

September opens up with some sort of consideration around a commitment. Tapping into spirit will bring you some luck and going on a short journey can give you some new perspective on an old situation. Try to get some rest and clear your mind. Cutting out the negative tape that is repeatedly running through your thoughts will help you tremendously too!

Advice from a friend helps you feel grateful and supported. This friend may also have a clever idea that gives you a lightbulb moment or a new perspective around your independence. There is a new beginning around your home as well. Listen to your heart.

Redecorating or reworking something in your home will bring a change you’ll be glad that you tried and it exposes something that you’ve wanted to come to fruition for a while.  A social gathering might bring on some confusion or obstacles and delays but there is some luck around this situation in the long run.

You may find that you have been gnawing away at yourself about your spiritual daily practice (or lack of it), but at the heart of the matter you are just trying to bring a dream to fruition. Tuning in to your own wisdom will clue you in to what you are not yet aware of. There is something that is leaving or shifting around your community, but in the end the choice you make concerning it actually puts you in a place of strength and authority. Say a solid yes to some decisions and you’ll find you have plenty of fish in the sea and a good flow of abundance. Communication is essential around something new that is testing you.

There’s a little detective work or research to be done about clearing up some of these messages so you can give them a rest and move forward. By end of this month you will be standing in your own power and feeling much more comfortable, which is exactly where you like to be the master of your universe!

 

GEMINI:

I’m happy to inform you that this month comes in with a sea of abundant opportunities. Narrow down your options to what you really desire by going within and listening to your own wisdom. You’ll find pleasure in your career or passion by getting clear on what is not serving you or is actually sabotaging you.

Something hidden or secret will come to the surface and will just as quickly be swept away, good riddance!   Don’t let any doubts steer you from this new adventure as you are being seen and talked about in a new way and it’s gorgeous!  You’ll grab messages out of thin air (duh!) and strategize these into great inner strength and power and that will be long lasting. The changes the universe wants you to have now put you into your own authority and bring you a new social community. Don’t be worried about letting the old fall away. You’ve got a strong foundation.

New resources, new people and surprise transformation are your best allies right now and will expose you in a new way that will brilliantly illuminate your reputation and how you are seen in the world. Say yes to friends and social opportunities that come up suddenly.

Being too tied down to the “old you” shuts down other options and choices that will speak to you only after really listening to your own heart. There’s some wonderful success and synchronicity around your livelihood. If you were looking for a sign it should show up before October and Pumpkin Spice Latte (everything) arrive.

 

CANCER:

Your family ancestry and messages from the other side come to the forefront this month. This is not something tangible. You will have to really listen to your inner knowing, because this involves your destiny and faith. Standing in your own authority will be fortuitous for you. It’s as if your entire family lineage has come to honor you (energetically speaking).  You may feel very clear and certain that your dreams are eluding you from not having enough sleep.

If you are thinking of selling or moving from you current home, this will be a change for the better—so go for it. Be careful not to give your prized possessions away (Are you freaking kidding me? I can feel you holding on tightly in your crab shell!), but clearing clutter sweeps away the old energy and makes room for the new. There is only so much room in that Cancerian shell!

It’s okay if you feel confused this month. You have lots of choices, but it’s imperative that you get clear on which one speaks to your heart.  Making a commitment to someone will bring in new beginnings, with messages that could be quite lovely and long lasting. You’ll find that talking to someone about what’s on your mind, instead of bottling it in, will actually bring you some peace.  You will have a big burst of recognition, be it rewards, acknowledgements or gratitude from your community or social scene and this may surprise you, even though it’s long overdue.

Embrace the praise and messages coming in. This could even be around your profession and finances which will feel much more stable. This new self-exposure may not only come from the people in your life, but from the universe as well. There is a special message for you so make a conscious effort to look for serendipitous events or occurrences. These are meant to get your attention and only you can know what gifts these bring to you. If something leaves at this time, let it go, wish it well and know it is making space for something wonderful and playful to come to you by Halloween.

 

LEO:

Well Leo, you’ve certainly been in the spot light this summer and with fall on its way I don’t see a dimmer switch in your future. September is all about communication and comes in with messages around your passion with plenty of luck around abundance—especially your cash flow.

You might be feeling especially creative this month and there will be lots of little discussions. I see a lot of talking, tweeting and texting all around your current journey and there is also something you are sweeping out of your home environment. Let it go! You’ll be glad you did.  Making some healthier choices around your wellbeing will give you an even more of that sun-kissed Leo glow. You’ll have a bright idea that will please you but don’t be tempted to act too quickly.

Something around the written word or writing will give you a new strategy relating to your livelihood or passion. Knowing when something is over will give you strength and power and lead you into a new journey. A friend might just message you with a social invitation. This could quickly put you in a new and more positive direction. Once you get clear around the details, you’ll havea lightbulb moment and your dimmer switch will be on a full throttle YES!

If you tune in to your wisdom and let time take its course, you could be very pleased with your professional reputation and the way you are seen in the world.  A sense of pride comes naturally to you and September appears to have you feeling over the moon and basking in the sun all at the same time—just where any self-respecting Leo likes to be!

 

VIRGO:

This is your time to shine and show your wisdom.  Many Virgos can be quite critical of themselves and are sticklers for details, but this month you will have some luck if you can just lighten up on yourself. You’ve got deep roots and provide that wonderful earth energy to others. They will appreciate you for those qualities this month.

A change for the better comes to your home environment and serendipitous occurrences through conversations will bring you certainty and boost your self-confidence. You’ve been feeling a bit “behind the scenes” for a while now and September comes with many new and exciting adventures which will truly feel like a gift. You are very solid in your personal power this month.

Getting clear that you are not only the star in the movie, you ARE the movie, will bring an illuminating moment.  Some solitude and quiet time is needed.  If a friend offers you an invite around something spiritual, go for it because it will strengthen your own authority. A social gathering in your work environment might be more about redundancy than fun and a little patience will go a long way. It’s time to make a decision about exposing something around your livelihood or friends. In the end, following your heart will give you the answers you’ve been looking for.

Don’t be surprised if you get news of a journey.  This could be for a weekend excursion or a full blown vacation.  Keeping the faith all month long and getting clear about your dreams is a great way of honoring yourself. You’ll have access to much more freedom now, especially around a commitment you recently made.  Something new is just around the corner, so get rid of any unwanted baggage and nurture yourself. Be methodical and practical (you love those details so this should be easy for you).  When messages and communication come in quickly, don’t jump at the first opportunity. The one that feels like it honors you the most is setting the foundation for October. You’ll be glad you were extra picky!

 

LIBRA:

Making a commitment to truly honor yourself and how you are seen in the world will give you that extra boost of faith you’ve been looking for. Getting rock solid on the gifts in your world and what, as well as who, you have to feel grateful for, is really valuable. You will make it crystal clear exactly who or what needs to go. You will feel more at home and comfortable in your own skin when you make a choice on what has to end and only then can something new begin. Putting yourself first and really taking the time to discover your needs will bring you great strength and fortitude. Resting and relaxing and discussing your thoughts with a good friend will bring you back to yourself. These conversations could revolve around your career, which for many of you Libras will be foremost on your mind. You could also be discussing travel, relocation or a promotion (through either work or your past efforts) that involves a lot of time away from home.

Your heart has a message for you and it wants you to know that the key is to not worry about being confused. Trust that in NOT knowing, it is actually serving your highest good at this time. Only through giving things a rest will you get clear. It’s the old adage “Can’t see the forest for the trees”. When you’re well rested and have stepped away, if only for a little while, you will be ready to move forward feeling refreshed and revived and you’ll feel much more enthusiasm and power in your world.

An animal totem may make itself known to you this month. Look for hints around you and watch for signs. If an animal crosses you, shows up in a dream or if you notice recurring themes or symbols, look up its meaning, and receive the message.

 

SCORPIO:

September begins with documents and details.  Clearing this out early in the month will bring you some luck and open up your abundance and creativity. Your home and family life looks very promising and full of inspirational gifts. Proceed with caution and get rock solid on what is not working for you. If something has been wearing away at a friendship for a long time, now there will finally be some  new refreshing options. Discussing these options with someone of knowledge or authority can give you clear insights on what spirit has been trying to tell you all along.

Brainstorming with a work buddy gets the creative juices flowing and also makes you clear on exactly where you want to be heading. Cutting away any confusion and tapping into your wisdom and grace will help you make this decision.

You’ve got great strength and support surrounding you this month, so  don’t spend your time worrying because your star is sparkling brighter than you could imagine and all will be revealed in due time.  Still waters run deep.  Even when those waters are testing you, it’s easier to go with the flow and let go.  There is something beautiful and peaceful in surrendering.  Tranquility is created by taking a break, sneaking away from obligations and listening to your heart’s desire. After you’ve had a reprieve, saying yes and making a solid commitment to something new will boost your finances and brighten your entire world.

 

SAGITTARIUS:

What a wonderful month you have in store! September comes in bearing gifts and it’s all about self- care. You have come a long way in 2017. This month, diving into loving yourself and a journey of nurturing your body and health will truly feed your soul. Making choices and decisions will bring you some certainty about who and what has to go.

You are truly ending a major chapter in your life and it is spectacular. The more you can commit to yourself and not get wrapped up in others energy, the more you will be anchoring into yourself and your true strengths.

Communicating on social media, tweets, emails etc. brings a lovey change. Your ability to stand in your grace at social gatherings makes way for a promotion and change that’s been gnawing at you for some time. Finally you’ve got the gumption and the universal back-up to take your life by the balls (or wings!) and let your star shine. Take out one of your besties and celebrate this journey with them. They are proud and happy for you and chances are, they believed in you when you didn’t believe in yourself.

Tranquility comes when you get grounded and cut the old and unwanted away. That’s the key to honoring yourself —speeding ahead full force, now that you’ve cleaned out the cobwebs. You would be wise to amp up your spiritual practice, because those dreams and messages that have been eluding you will expose themselves once that karmic crap is blown out of your presence. It has literally been cleaned up this month!  The past is dead and gone. You are now ready and able to love yourself on a new, profound level. It could be the highlight of your life. You did it! Take a moment to acknowledge your hard work, because you’re not going to have a lot of time next month for anything but progress. You won’t be looking back at this year again. There is too much great stuff ahead of you!

 

CAPRICORN:

This month there is a lot of discussion around climbing those obstacles and mountains (Well looky who has the mastery of cliff hanging, Cap!). Finally, a burden or something that has been festering, will resolve itself.

You are a dear, loyal friend and have so much to offer the people in your world. You truly do make those around you feel loved and secure. At this time, letting those people find their own carabiners and ropes would be of great benefit to you.  It’s clear that you can actually hang out on those cliffs alone. Let others expectations of you and their co-dependency go.

This is the key to your success this month.
The gift you give the world is your stability and tenacity, but be careful of over-committing yourself to others. Rest and revive this month and ponder on your true passion and what brings you joy. This will be time well spent. The stars shine brightly on you and illuminate you by clearing out obstacles and delays around your family or home. You are not the Rock of Gibraltar and it’s time others start climbing some mountains alone.

Standing in your own authority will bring a new sense of faith. Some people might not recognize or feel comfortable with these speedy changes that you are embracing.  Remember— it’s your journey, not theirs. You don’t need to explain yourself. You will find great peace and satisfaction in reading or writing. Journaling will bring you solace as well as bear witness to the new you that you are embracing— much more than someone holding you to old paradigms.

 

AQUARIUS:

September might start off with a bit of confusion and you might feel like your head is in the clouds. Letting go of something will bring you some luck. There are some new things coming in around your family and friends and this will make you feel content. You will also have some certainty around your livelihood but you may be tempted to go against your gut, so get clear on what it is you really want because your inner wisdom knows exactly what to commit to.

Be mindful of your health and clear out anything that is not making feel good in your diet. Joining a gym or health group on social media will aid you in this. You need to rest and rejuvenate and up your intake of “green” food. You’ll feel revived if you do. A true friend or love interest honors you and assists you in getting in touch with your own authority.

There will decisions made in September. Don’t worry yourself over them, just be thorough and extra smart. You might not realize it yet, but you are gifted with the ability to research many things and hone in on the perfect solution that will bring you peace. A fall shopping spree could bring you just the lift you’ve been looking for and soon you will need to look extra stylish at the workplace. There is a possibility of a promotion or even being relocated to another department which will please you. So say “yes” to anything you feel might be ending.

Finances will open up giving you some freedom and choices. If your home life is testing you, try speaking to a life coach, 12 advisor or a role model. There is a special message from the universe and this could help you get clear. By discussing it with the right person, you’ll gain guidance and insight which will help you attain your goal and with it, happiness.

 

PISCES:

Connections and conversations with family and dear friends will be a big part of September. Your spirit guides and ancestors are particularly close to you right now as well. New revelations will come in quickly and you’ll be grateful for them.

Be cautious about working too many long hours or over extending yourself. Constantly pushing yourself can wear you down and eat away at your ability to see things clearly. When you gain clear insight on the amount of strength you’ve put into something that isn’t working, you’ll feel solid and sure about letting it go.

An intimate social event promises a night under the stars with a loyal friend or lover. Don’t burden yourself with the details. Enjoy, relax and take some time to look up into the night sky and dream. And when you do, don’t dream small— dream BIG! Work with your Solar Plexus Chakra (The “I can” Chakra). Wearing and eating the color yellow will be very beneficial for you and you will beam sunshine from the inside out. The world needs more light workers and your glow will be contagious! You have an inner light guiding you on your spiritual journey and committing yourself to a spiritual practice by  being more quiet and reflective this month will be the way to stock up all the energy you’ll need for a new adventure in October.

Keep your wings up!

Patience is a virtue but not one of mine!

I always say that patience is a virtue just not one of mine! Can you relate?  How many times have you thought to yourself I’ve done all my homework, I’ve meditated, I’ve been oh so very good, so why isn’t what I am working on manifesting materializing? Well it’s a bit of the old adage Hurry up and wait!” I can hear the hands of the clock ticking ….“Tick Tock “ and the toe of my impatient shoe tapping…“tap tap tap”… we don’t live in a patient world! Summer is the season where everything is growing, budding and blooming and now that we are nearing the end of it we anticipate the harvest. It’s only natural to want the same thing to happen with your dreams and desires.  Sometimes I have to remind myself that all timing is divine timing! Nothing that truly belongs to you can ever pass you by! Spirit is always working in your favor even when it just doesn’t feel like it. Spirit always knows what is best for you and the perfect timing for it to arrive… Spirit also knows what is not for your highest good and sometimes when things don’t go just the way we think they should, it means that spirit is actually protecting us. The next time you are feeling impatient remember this is the absolute perfect timing for keeping your wings up, keeping the faith and remaining as patient as you can. You can’t plant a seed in the dirt during the morning sunrise and go back out at sunset and expect a sprig of green, because most gorgeous & glorious things take time! So you wouldn’t rip your baby seed from the earth and discard it if you wanted it to thrive, you’d nurture it, water it, protect it and love it and you would TRUST that a tiny and mighty bud will appear. Your dreams and desires work the same way, you have to send out your desires to the universe, and then you put your best action behind them and while you wait you dream about them, visualize them and feed them with love. If it’s meant to come to you it will so just be still and sure in the knowing that if it arrives it’s for your highest good. And if what you wanted doesn’t show up, thank spirit for looking out for your highest good and remember that doesn’t mean it won’t happen, it just means it won’t happen right now. All your power and timing is divine timing and all your power is in this moment RIGHT NOW!

Elizabeth Lindsay is a clairvoyant spiritual light-warrior and counselor at  www.12listen.com Elizabeth Lindsay is a creative soul whose life journey and passion has evolved into helping others empower themselves. Elizabeth has the innate ability to tune in and tap into your spirit guides and energy to offer clear concise answers and tools that give you a fresh perspective as well as raise your vibration. Elizabeth’s goal is to always help you get unstuck, move forward and leave her company feeling confident in the knowing that you are honoring yourself and your soul’s growth.  Be it a need for clearing a vibrational blockage, a quick answer, or an in-depth dive into the realms of possibilities she will help guide you into your personal power and strength

Energy suckers or zappers wearing you down? Indulge in my light warrior comic strip it’s got some good juicy bits and it’s fun!

THE END! (for now)

The New Beginning ….. Elizabeth Lindsay is proud to announce that she is now working as a clairvoyant spiritual light-warrior and counselor at  www.12listen.com Elizabeth Lindsay is a creative soul whose life journey and passion has evolved into helping others empower themselves. Elizabeth has the innate ability to tune in and tap into your spirit guides and energy to offer clear concise answers and tools that give you a fresh perspective as well as raise your vibration. Elizabeth’s goal is to always help you get unstuck, move forward and leave her company feeling confident in the knowing that you are honoring yourself and your soul’s growth.  Be it a need for clearing a vibrational blockage, a quick answer, or an in-depth dive into the realms of possibilities she will help guide you into your personal power and strength.

 

The “hook” always belongs to you never them. The trick is to realize you’ve been hooked and “unhook” yourself. We all do it! We get caught in needing to be right or feeling mistreated and wanting to defend ourselves, but when we can recognize this and unhook ourselves that’s when we really have the freedom to free ourselves and move on to a flight plan.

9 things you can do right now to take the hook out of yourself and fly free

1. Giving a care about what others think

When you care too much about what others say about you good or bad, you live your life for them and not yourself. If you are basing your self-worth on their opinions of you whether they are good or bad, you are gauging how you feel about yourself by someone else. The truth is how people judge your journey is really about their journey never yours. Let go of people who rob you of your peace, especially yourself

2. Feeling a need to be right all the time and constantly defending yourself.

In the end it’s between you and spirit, never them! You always know in your heart what your intent and integrity was in any situation, so find peace in the knowing that you don’t need to prove anything to anyone.

3.The gremlins in your head insisting that you be perfect.

As “Ronny Cammareri” says in the movie “Moonstruck”, “We aren’t here to make things perfect. The snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts!”… We are spiritual beings having a human experience in a flesh suit, riding a rock that is hurtling through space. That’s a miracle enough for one lifetime don’t ya think?

4. Giving a care about Past mistakes

Every single “mistake” you made got you to where you are right now… you’ve been through some major shit. Name it, claim it and recognize how far you’ve come. Honor every stone in the road and let them go! You won’t need them where you are headed, it’s easier to fly with those gorgeous earth angel wings when you are not weighted down.

5. A hook is a hook is a hook

My theory is 1 out of roughly every 8 situations in your life, be it people, situations or your own self- defeating doubts,  are going to show up to test your spiritual fortitude. They reflect back to you your kindness, goodwill and compassion. This is spirit showing up to let you see how far you’ve come and how far you have to go. Honor the baby steps.

6. Wondering about “What ifs”

That which truly belongs to you can never pass you by trust that spirit is conspiring for you in all situations in your life and that it is also divinely protecting you. Some things we wish happened in our lives and not receiving them were actually blessings in disguise, they put us on a more empowered path on our earth angel journey. 

7.Worrying about the future.

The only moment we can control how we react and behave is RIGHT NOW. When you are worried about the future you are not only robbing yourself of your peace of mind in the now, you are also creating everything in a “pool of anxiety!” Stay in your heart space and love yourself through everything that’s where the “future” juicy bits are created.

8. Forgive everything

Forgive everyone and everything including yourself. People are going to break your heart it happens to everyone at one time or another. Remember the lesson and leave the rest behind. You can’t change the past but don’t let the past rob you of your current happiness. You are worthy of living a peaceful and fulfilling life and letting that shit go.

9. Love yourself through everything.

Trust me, loving yourself through everything isn’t easy but the rewards are immeasurable. You are the only “you” living in your flesh-suit. Honor you in all ways, always. Bring yourself back to your heart space every time you feel a hook gently and lovingly unhook yourself treat yourself like you would a small child. Unlearning everything that never belonged to you is a process and healing and peeling takes time. The more layers you heal away the more healthy self-worthy loving layers grow. We are all works in progress that’s why we are “here”, you’ve already arrived… the trick is to love yourself through everything so you can thrive in this life!

 

Meaning of the phrase “off the hook”: When you are freed from an obligation “On the hook” – caught in a difficult or dangerous situation.

Elizabeth Lindsay is proud to announce that she is now working as a clairvoyant spiritual light-warrior and counselor at  www.12listen.com Elizabeth Lindsay is a creative soul whose life journey and passion has evolved into helping others empower themselves. Elizabeth has the innate ability to tune in and tap into your spirit guides and energy to offer clear concise answers and tools that give you a fresh perspective as well as raise your vibration. Elizabeth’s goal is to always help you get unstuck, move forward and leave her company feeling confident in the knowing that you are honoring yourself and your soul’s growth.  Be it a need for clearing a vibrational blockage, a quick answer, or an in-depth dive into the realms of possibilities she will help guide you into your personal power and strength.

 

 

Once upon a time there was a creative soul who wanted to make a difference in the world, but she just didn’t know how.  She lost the last of her tribe and felt very alone. She pushed through and persisted and did what she always knew to do, she created beautiful things from her heart with her hands, yet she always knew something was missing, like Goldilocks, nothing was ever quite right and yet with a heart full of grief she persisted…

and persisted

and persisted

Then, she went on a very scary adventure… some people would call it “the dark night of the soul”. At the very end of 2014 she submitted a book proposal to an editor at “Hay House” and started a movement called “Angel with an Edge” in honor of three of the most incredible woman she’d ever known, her two aunts and her Mother, all who battled breast cancer and who all left this physical world. She persisted, but spirit had a different plan for her and soul insisted that she listen.
But she didn’t listen, or allow, or receive she just persisted.
She got a tiny rock from spirit, then she got a big rock then she got a giant rock then she got a boulder and she tried to haul that boulder up the hill until it came back down after her.  Little did she know that in less than two short months she would have an emergency surgery for a 54.6 pound contained cancerous tumor, lose most of her hair, and have an open wound and daily in home medical care for months. During this time she went bankrupt professionally and personally, she lost her car, she lost some friends she had counted on, she felt abandoned and she did what she always knew to survive, she persisted. She was allowed to keep her artist owned business, it had been her livelihood for 25 years… even though there was a little voice inside of her struggling to get her attention…  
she persisted

She could hear this insistent little tapping inside her she numbed it down for years. But now if she ignored it, it became louder and louder and there was this very tiny beam of light so bright inside of her she could feel it, and it could not be ignored. She realized that until she listened to her screaming soul she would always be miserable. And that tiny little voice that could not be ignored started to make itself known more and more

I’m here. (But she resisted and persisted)
I’m here. (And she resisted)
I’M HERE…and she persisted

She persisted and pushed herself through everything and loved herself through nothing.
And then she got sick again and spirit made her very ill so she would be still until she actually listened. Until she went inside and remembered who she was and what she came here to do and that she had gifts that could help people and by helping people she could help herself and by helping herself she could help the world.
She went inside, while she literally grew new skin on the outside, she “healed and peeled”, and with each layer she removed and with each layer of skin she grew, she transformed while she remembered when she was really young and small …

She remembered.

She didn’t know how much she knew about others feelings back then she just knew she felt them and they paralyzed her with self-doubt. She didn’t realize until nearly half a lifetime later that as a small child she felt the damage and hurt in the energy fields and bodies of the people around her. In her child’s mind she translated the emotions and feelings and judgements adults carried and their own belief systems and fear patterns as their opinions of her. As a result of this, she spent most of her life believing she was not worthy. She felt that until she could be “enough”, she was truly not worthy and certainly not enough.  She felt she was trapped in a small body with a small voice that was stifled and quieted and nearly always felt shamed. She learned at a very early age her authenticity and honesty and her “gifts” her abilities to know things about others was not something that was admired but feared!  She also learned that if I made her small and shut this down she would “fit in”.

…Oh and it worked at least for several decades until her entire existence was threatened with extinction and she woke up and realized everything she thought would kill her had already happened. Every fear she had of showing her gifts and her abilities to the world couldn’t possibly be worse than nearly losing her life. She re-acquainted herself with the wise soul who had never abandoned her and always protected her and kept her gifts safe. The one who kept her wings all these years waiting for her to show up! When she did this little angel with an edge said “you’ve finally arrived and I’ve been keeping your wings for you it’s time you take a leap and give them a ride”. 
And so she cried and hugged the keeper of her memories and her wings…she exclaimed
“I’m here”.
“I can’t ignore you anymore because you and I are one”.
She gathered up all the gifts the universe asked her to receive and took flight on her newly unfurled wings and on her journey she explored all the treasures inside her she had forgotten and she unlearned all the things that never belonged to her to begin with. She met guides, angels, sprites and ascended masters.

She glided on her wings trusting spirit who found her the most wonderful of places to feather her nest and to rest and revive so she could return to the treasure she came here to be and to be seen.  She found a tribe of people who understood and recognized authenticity and magic who understood that the real tragedy of a human life was a life spent betraying one’s own heart by staying small, numb and in the dark.  She embraced her tribe and vowed she would always be a light warrior and a beacon for all those embarking on becoming awake and compassionate and more than anything she swore she would love herself through everything and push herself through nothing and she never resisted or persisted again.  

She became a self-proclaimed renaissance, earth angel, spiritual, artistic, intuitive, inspirational pizza pie because that’s how life goes sometimes you never know exactly what you’re going to get on each slice, you just know it’s going to be amazing. 

And that Angel with and Edge is me, I feel like Dorothy and Cinderella all at the same time, well the new age ones anyway with wings instead of ruby slippers …And I’m here to tell you that fairytales do come true you just have to create your own! Cinderella had it partially right, she said a dream is a wish your heart makes, but I’ll respectfully disagree, “A dream is a REALITY your heart makes”.  

The (end) Middle…

Elizabeth Lindsay is proud to announce that she is now working as a clairvoyant spiritual light-warrior and counselor at  www.12listen.com Elizabeth Lindsay is a creative soul whose life journey and passion has evolved into helping others empower themselves. Elizabeth has the innate ability to tune in and tap into your spirit guides and energy to offer clear concise answers and tools that give you a fresh perspective as well as raise your vibration. Elizabeth’s goal is to always help you get unstuck, move forward and leave her company feeling confident in the knowing that you are honoring yourself and your soul’s growth.  Be it a need for clearing a vibrational blockage, a quick answer, or an in-depth dive into the realms of possibilities she will help guide you into your personal power and strength.

Lighthouses, Storms and Carabiners

Lighthouses, storms and carabiners

My mother was my carabiner*. She let me take risks, she let me out on the ledge to develop my own independent skills but she always kept a watchful eye for me and could reel me back on a safety line to prevent me from going over the edge.

She was also my anchor and my lighthouse; she was someone that could let me take risks while still grounding me by being a beacon of light when I could not find my own way. How blessed I am to have had such an amazing soul! Now that she’s gone, I realize what an incredible role model she was, not only because she was brave and extraordinary, but because she let me build the tools that allowed me to believe that I had the power within me to do the same.  

When my mother died there were two deaths, hers and mine, and I had to learn how to live in this world without her in it.  I soon found myself in troubled waters… I had a life threatening illness for over two years and my entire life was capsized. I needed my old tools, but I needed some new ones too, and thanks to my Mother’s good guidance I had the wherewithal to create some.  During this reconstruction of what I call “the dark night of the soul”, I didn’t know I was becoming a lighthouse, I was just trying to survive.  I began constructing myself one layer at a time and I had some tremendous help along the way. You don’t just wake up one day as a lighthouse; it takes time to build one brick at a time.

Just like every single brick it took to become a lighthouse, there was a mentor, a friend and a teacher that helped guide me, support me and lead me into my power. INTO as in within myself… it’s an extraordinary thing when you get to the point in your life that you can stay in your power in your own authority and not be pulled into the chaos and turbulence around you, but still be a guiding light for others.

I’ve discovered through this journey that I’m here to help people just like a safety line on a carabiner, while they work at strengthening their baby wings. The more they get worked out, the stronger they become, and I’m right there holding their kite string, I’m not going to let them fly to far away or fall too far. It’s not that I’m wiser, it’s just that I’ve had more chances to fly and to fall lately, and it’s my turn to be one of your bricks in the lighthouse you don’t know you are becoming yet! There’s a reason the lighthouse is on the edge of the shore as a beacon of light to be witnessed by the ones in the storm because that is where the light is needed. This light guides us back to our very souls; to our very own empowerment that light is reminding us that we are here to live on the edge and not just survive, but to thrive.  So now that I’m clear on my path, I’m helping people stay on the edge witnessing them taking risks and assisting them in listening to their souls because the “Edge” is very important right now so much so that many of us are teetering out there with baby wings. As a collective we’ve never been here before but so many of us are discovering that we must listen to our hearts that are literally screaming at us beating so loudly in our ribcages to be heard and followed! 

My mama always said “Beth breathe and do the brave thing” and my heart always knew she was right. That advice has carried me through to this very moment.

So I pass these most precious words onto you…Breathe and do the brave thing, don’t be afraid in the dark to turn on your light and show who you really are. Be a tiny spark in the dark so that the other tiny sparks will find you that’s all they need and then you’ll see you are not alone, you never ever were. You are in a sea of tiny sparks of light all of who just had to find each other and the more you do this the bigger the glow will grow and before you know it …………… you’ll be a blaze and amazed! The light house lights up to show us the way. Everyone lost in the dark will have a path to see a way through and then you’ll be there guiding people on the edge of the dark inspiring and working your way up the path with people wanting to follow you and understand how you got there, that’s how it works, that’s how it has always worked. And when you are confused or lost on that path, there is a lighthouse leading the way for everyone, you just need to take that next baby step.  

One match lights a thousand candles a thousand candles lights up the night the night becomes so bright that everyone else is blinded by the light and their baby peepers open because the light simply cannot be ignored or denied.

It’s becoming a glorious bonfire and you’re the in the middle of a marvelous beach party.

Each journey is as unique as is everyone’s own soul blueprint, but we all need help and guidance in the baby steps we take. No one is more important, we are all just at different spiritual stepping stones on the path we all need a lighthouse. I’m just a few steps ahead of you that’s why I know what I know I’ve walked those stairs each one became a brick in my lighthouse, that’s why I can lend you my insights and guide you there.   

So go INTO and listen to your soul. Knowing that now you are making a decision from your soul and not your head and especially not from dread or in the belief that you should stay small because making choices from fear is no longer going to work. You can’t be a lighthouse and stay small. It’s not selfish to do what your soul tells you do, the rest will fall away or fall into place, stay in your heart space, it will never steer you wrong. Living on the edge brings gifts spirit can imagine, way bigger than you could ever imagine for yourself. You’ll need to shine bright in your power for these gifts to find you. We need more beacons of light. The scariest step on the journey to becoming a light house is the first one I’m here to remind you that it’s time. How do I know? I know because you probably wouldn’t have read this all the way through if you were not indeed a lighthouse in the making, thanks for letting me be a brick!

 

*A rock climbing tool that keeps climbers from falling off a cliff

 

 

Toxic Tumbleweeds

It’s time to choose how you want to react and act in this world. This is one of the only things in life you have truly have control over. Let the snarkity miserable people behave badly; hell let them wallow in it until their fingers are all prune-y. Let’s get real sometimes it can be fun witnessing someone escalating on the edge, especially when they’ve just been rude to you. You know what’s even more glorious? Witnessing someone who stays in their power and refuses to engage in someone else’s rage, that’s splendid!
My husband always says “One out of eight people is out to ruin your day”, and you know what, I think there is some truth to that. Do let me spin it this way; roughly one out of eight encounters in your day is out to test your patience and spiritual growth. So next time you have an encounter with a snarkity person on the ledge who just cut you off, or cut in line in front of you, or cut you with a sharp remark on their tongue, remember to … stop, breathe, reel yourself back in from their Tasmanian Devil spin… don’t get swept up in their toxic tumbleweeds.

Remind yourself who you are… You are a Light Warrior who’s traveled far on their spiritual path and you’ve got some badass Teflon knowing that shit can’t stick to you, especially if you believe it has nothing to do with you. Recognize they are showing you their pain because only someone in pain would treat another human being the way they just treated you. Smile your best smile with compassion and shine a little bit love on them, they clearly desperately need it. Don’t forget to pat yourself on the back Light Warrior as you kindly walk away knowing your work here is done.
Until the next one…. (There’s always a next one)

Wings UP Get Up, Dress Up, Show Up, Shine Up and Never Give Up!

Elizabeth Lindsay is the founder of Angel with an Edge and is building an army of earth angels who are spreading love and light throughout the universe, one earth angel at time. Learn more about Elizabeth and her movement at www.angelwithanedge.com and join her each Wednesday at 11:00AM-PSTon her radio show Angel With an Edge show, www.12.radio.com

 

 

Calling All Light Warriors!!!

 

We ALL have the ability to raise the vibration of the planet and the people around us by standing in our truth and authenticity and keeping our boundaries. If you are willing to do just that, the truth is we as a collective social consciousness have never needed you more than now! Just as Gandhi said, “Be the change you wish to see in the world”, you must consider what you are putting out into the world. The time to take things personally from other people’s behavior is over, so is standing on the sidelines as a spectator. You have the power right there inside your brave beating heart. It’s time to truly choose how you want to react and act in this world. Don’t let the negative, dark, unhappy people determine how you will behave.  For as long as I can remember I have loved the singer and songwriter “James Taylor”, remember his song “Shower the people you love with love”? I’m going to take a little artistic licensing here and say, how about we just shower everyone with love and light, the wrong and the right, (I don’t think James will mind). So here is what I’ve learned, if you want to burn you must ignite your light, name it, claim it, and don’t contain it. This year I thought long and hard about the title “Light Worker”, and why that doesn’t perfectly work for me. I’m not “working” anything I’m claiming my right and my light inside of me. I feel so strongly that I am willing to fight for it. So I’ve started calling myself a “Light Warrior”.

Whatever badass superhero name works for you to raise the vibration of our beautiful planet please choose it, and if you don’t need a title that’s cool too. I believe this is my time to shine by living the truth directly from within this heart of mine because it has never steered me wrong.  I am a warrior of light so much so that I’m willing to fight for it. I hope you’ll consider joining me and fan the flames with your Wings Up!

We all contain fires that burn within. Shine your light so bright the dark can’t win. Light Warriors Unite!

Wings UP Get Up, Dress Up, Show Up, Light Up and Never Give Up!

Elizabeth Lindsay is the founder of Angel with an Edge and is building an army of earth angels who are spreading love and light throughout the universe, one earth angel at time. Learn more about Elizabeth and her movement at www.angelwithanedge.com   and join her each Wednesday at 11:00AM-PSTon her radio show Angel With an Edge show, www.12.radio.com

 

 

 

The Diffuser Confuser

 

THE DIFFUSER CONFUSER

(The fed up in me reflects the fed up in you back to you. Wait what? )

Let’s face it, no matter how much spiritual work you’ve done on yourself; there is always that one incident that shows up to test your kindness and patience skills. That “friend” on social media that keeps testing you with their differing point of view by posting it on your page instead of theirs! Or does this scenario sound familiar?  Brunch with family members you love but have political views that you don’t agree with.  If you acted on your feelings you might jump up from the table and throw a mimosa in their face before marching out of the restaurant looking like a lunatic (yeah don’t judge!).  Well next time you find yourself in a pinch, I’ve got a simple spiritual tool that will save you!

Simply imagine you have a miners cap on your head but instead of a light you’ve got a mirror,  aim your mirror back at the irritating subject and allow what they are saying to you to bounce back to them. Of course they won’t know that you’ve reflected their behavior back to them, but you will feel a great sense of relief and confuse the heck out of them at the same time. It’s a great diffuser for your unwanted irritation and confusing them is just a bonus. It’s a DIFFUSSER CONFUSER and it works like a charm.

The next time those “Velcro Gremlins” manage to attach themselves to you and you’re wanting  to rip them off of you as compassionately as possible…try flipping down your imaginary headgear mirror and your badass rejection, good vibes protection shield will start doing its work and reflect them back to them. So you can sit back, enjoy your mimosa and witness spirit working in your favor in all its splendid glory. It works wonders and the more you use it the more you deflect those little Velcro suckers!

In some cases you can use a real physical mirror: For example I love animals but I don’t love my neighbors dogs barking every single time someone passes by on the sidewalk. About a month ago I decided to try this little experiment and placed a mirror on the side of my house facing my neighbor’s house and since then I am happy to report that the barking has been cut in half.

If it’s true that the eyes are the mirror of the soul then it also seems true that we can’t create a world of all like-minded souls, or control them. But the next time your patience is tested try putting up your “diffuser confuser” when you can’t immediately get out of a situation and you’ll see a lot more of what you carry in your own heart and a lot less of other people’s reflections and projections!

Wings UP Get Up, Dress Up, Show Up, keep your Wings Up and Never Give Up!

Elizabeth Lindsay is the founder of Angel with an Edge and is building an army of earth angels who are spreading love and light throughout the universe, one earth angel at time. Learn more about Elizabeth and her movement at www.angelwithanedge.com   and join her each Wednesday at 11:00AM-PSTon her radio show Angel With an Edge show, www.12.radio.com

 

 

 

 

 

My HeartLESS Desire

The other day a friend from high school commented on my FB post. She posted this in response to one of my “Wings Up” posts:

“One day I hope to love and cherish myself as you do. I am working on it! I love your positive self-love lessons!”

And my response was this …
“Sweets, I’m on this path every single day. It’s what we all came here to do. I’m learning to love myself through everything, but I have certainly not mastered it. If I can do it, so can you, Mary Lou! : ) XO”

I’ve done a lot of thinking about this post, and I’d like to clarify something, and this is it: I’m on this path with you, and I really want to clarify that I’ve perfected nothing! I don’t even think perfection is attainable. I spent nearly half a decade trying to achieve it. When you see my inspirational posts about keeping your wings up, it’s because I need to hear it, too. I’m building an army of earth angels because we are all on the edge of something, and that includes me! Awhile back, I went through a really scary time, and it’s a miracle that I’m healthy and alive. Once you have a life threatening crisis it changes many things, and the biggest thing it changed in me was my need to speak authentically from my heart, regardless of the backlash. I don’t want to die with my heart closed off and shut down. My goal is to use up my entire heart! Then I can be the gal that died with no heart because she gave it all way. Now there’s a new spin on heartless. I believe we only live with regrets when we betray our own hearts. All I know is if I follow my heart and listen to it, it screams less loudly inside of me to get my attention and be heard. Now every day I go inside my heart and the depths of my soul, and that’s where I’ve found many gifts I came into this lifetime with that had been forgotten.

We all choose to be here at a soul level. I believe we choose our parents and our families,
and the experiences, good and bad, to help us learn compassion for everyone, including ourselves. We all come from the same creator, and the sooner we come back to our soul truth, the sooner we empower ourselves. A long time ago, as a child of 4 or 5, because of abuse and trauma, I shut down and I folded and packed away my wings. I hid them in such a deep place that even I forgot them. But my wings would not be denied, and they would not let me live this lifetime without being remembered and honored. I thank that little girl for being braver than me, for keeping my wings safe for me, and for being my memory. She’s the bravest soul I know. My wings are my metaphor for empowerment. I shut down and hid my power because I knew it would be taken from me, and it was too precious not to be mine. That which is truly yours can never, ever pass you by.

I spent most of my life having something to prove and kicking shit to the curb. I sold my work to many celebrities, I sold my creations nationally to such stores as Neiman Marcus. I eventually had my own store and many people thought of me as a success, but I never really did. Of course, I had proud moments, like designing the 10 year commemorative pin for Race For the Cure, which I did with love in honor of my Mother and two aunts who all had breast cancer. There are bits and pieces of pride, but most of them are ego-based. Then, I got really ill, like life threatening ill. I had two major surgeries, I lost my car, I lost my artist owned shop, and I went bankrupt. Now? I don’t push anything. I don’t force a dang thing! I allow, I receive, I be …“Just be”. I had to allow myself to accept that I was worthy of receiving. Think that’s easy? Try it. I think you’ll be surprised by the depths of the journey you’ll be embarking on. I’m not saying you have to have a near death experience to understand this, to transform yourself onto the path of learning to love yourself, just that this is what happened to me. I literally had to have my entire world turned upside down and my own mortality threatened, to understand that I was pushing myself through everything and not loving myself through very much. I can honestly say now, right now, I’m happier than I’ve ever been with myself. Happiness is an inside job, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t contagious. If you’ve got something to share that will make this world a more loving place, please don’t contain it! We need more of that in the world. Don’t wait for someday to be brave. The only way to be brave is to be scared, and do it anyway. This is your day, right now! When you rise up and speak from your heart, magical, serendipitous things will begin to happen. I know this for a fact, because it happened to me.

Since the beginning of the year, I’ve been busy recovering, healing and reacquainting myself with who I really am and that little girl that protected me so well. I’ve survived a lot, I’ve unlearned a lot, and I’ve learned to trust a lot. I know in my bones that we’ve got to love ourselves through everything and that can only be done by walking this path of love, one baby step at a time with intention, bravery, truth and authenticity.

I’ve been on a big adventure these past few years. A lot of it has been public, on my radio show, and a lot of it internal. It may surprise you to know that I’m actually scared to reveal my inner knowing, because I spent the first 50 years of my life keeping it shut down and hidden. I resisted my truth, but my truth was relentless and would not let me rest, and neither would my spirit. I might be afraid, but I’m outing myself-coming out of the spiritual closet, right now, by revealing myself to you. My entire life I’ve seen things and I’ve known things intuitively. I can see and feel things about other people, too and I resisted it, I locked it up in my own rib-cage and now I’m setting it free. You don’t have to follow me, you don’t have to like me or even believe me, that’s okay. But you know what? I do! I have to stand in my truth, I have to love myself through as much as I can, and I have to lead by example and I have to speak from heart until it is all used up.

I’m an intuitive, creative, light warrior goddess, and I intend on honoring myself in all ways, always! I’m on a new road with lots of anticipation, trepidation and excitement, while I’m exploring and tapping into my spiritual gifts. I can hardly wait to see where my wings will take me, and I’m looking forward to my new flight plan immensely. I came here to be the light and to lead by example. Many of us can agree we’ve fallen on some dark times, but I’ve got too many good things to do and too many things I am passionate about. I’m now about making things happen, like raising the vibration of everyone and everything around me, even the ones that drive me nuts and bug the shit out of me, and yes, that happens to me all the time! Just because I am a light warrior doesn’t mean I’m airy, fairy rainbows and unicorns all the time. Of course not, the edge is there for a reason!

The dark side… they love Light workers. They love the peaceful people like us raising the vibration. They are literally like moths to the flame. Their energy can feel that you’ve got something wonderful that they don’t have, and they want to eat you and consume you . Literally, they are vacuums of the light … but they can’t they cannot control the light. They don’t have any power over it, because they don’t know how it works. They are in awe, so they want to cover it, consume it like perfume, they want to breath it in until it is gone, because that is the only way they can touch the light. It is that unknown to them.

We came here to be the light. That light is getting brighter and brighter. It may appear the world is getting darker, but that is not true. The only reason you are seeing so much dark is because the LIGHT makes it stand out. The dark under light has nowhere to hide. It tries, but it always bubbles to the surface and gives itself away, and this is exactly what is happening on our planet, in the human consciousness right now. And guess what? The LIGHT is not going away. The MOTH is much much smaller than the flame, and the flame has mesmerized the moth. The moth has very little power, but it knows how to flap its wings and create great shadows and abrupt movements and distractions, but that doesn’t give it power. It’s exhausted fighting the light it can’t consume. The dark is being extinguished and it knows it, and it’s throwing its last tantrum!

If this resonates with you, I hope you’ll join me in staying authentic and being the light and love we wish to see in this world. I truly believe love and light will win, and this is the beginning of a new, loving world. It’s just on the horizon, it’s sunrise time! Hold on tight, be the light, and keep the faith. When I’m HEARTLESS, I’ll know I’ve accomplished this life’s task here on earth school. And if I die heartless by using it all up before I depart this planet, then I’ll know I followed the spirit and the voice of my own heart, by uplifting others on the journey to self-love, until I didn’t have one bit of it left! But, you can bet I’m bringing my wings with me!

A Plea to my friends and foes

A plea to my friends and foes
I have the biggest bravest heart beating inside my ribcage. Human hearts are wild creatures perhaps that’s why our ribs are cages, better our ribs be cages than our hearts be savages. I’m loyal to a fault. Please don’t say something is purple when it is yellow and expect me to keep the truth trapped in my throat.
I will always fight for the underdog and I will always fight for what is right, the light. So don’t you cross me or someone I love. It would be wise to remember that I’m a Native New Yorker and I’ll kick your crap to the curb. Stop fighting to climb that pile of bullshit you’ve made into a mountain just to prove that you can. When you get to the top you will be just standing on a pile of dung you have not won. I have more compassion in my pinky finger and I’m way brighter and sparklier (yes I know that is not a word) than you can imagine. This isn’t a competition I truly want what’s best for all concerned. I’m a dog with a bone I never forget and I won’t let you either until you learn that hate is never the way.
I believe in the goodness of people and in turning the other cheek and I don’t believe in defeat.
I believe peace, integrity, authenticity, compassion and love are the best things you can wear every day before you open your front door and head out into this world
I believe God / Spirit will take care of others wrong doings way better than I could ever imagine. And for this I am grateful and I can sleep.
I believe in lifting people up and if they fall providing them the safest most loving place to land. I believe if you look down upon them it should only be to give them your hand.
I believe together, united, respected, honored, valued and loved we can get way more shit done and I believe in the power of prayer for everyone. I believe the power of many is greater than the power of one.
I believe A soul is nourished by what it GIVES not by what it receives.
I believe that Keeping your heart open & full of compassion is an extraordinary strength especially in the world we have created today.
I believe we all can love ourselves through anything as long as long as we remember that we all came from the same creator and we all get out alive in another form to transform and move on hopefully for the better.
We can’t live in the land of puppies and laughing babies and unicorns and rainbows we can visit but we don’t get to stay NOT on earth school on earth school we are here to get shit done.
I for one am doing that and if I inspire one person out there to do the same than all that loving myself through everything is working. I highly recommend you show up and try it I’m not saying it’s easy but we need you. We as a human race we all need you to show up and get your shit done.
Thank you

easter picture April 6th 1969I’ve always had a weird connection to Easter and my father. When I was young, I remember being terrified of a gigantic, human-sized Easter bunny looming over me with a hard plastic distorted bunny face yelling a muffled, “Happy Easter” from inside itself. It scared the shit out of me! There is a picture of my brother and me holding up a sign that reads, “Happy Easter”. This big production, I presume, was for my grandparents because they lived in the south and evidence of a Happy Easter was required. I have no idea, all I know is I have been creeped out by men in Easter bunny suits ever since. Nothing about a fake bunny suit is comforting or festive. On the contrary, it makes my skin crawl! I have the same aversion with clowns, but I have no recollection of any early clown occurrence that would cause this kind of reaction from me for the rest of my adult life.

My father’s death certificate says he died of Leukemia, but I am pretty certain he actually died of AIDS in the early 80’s before there was a name for the virus. At that time, gay men in New York were dropping like flies and being refused medical care in hospitals for fear of contagion.

It was very important to my father that things always looked “good” regardless of how they really were. I’m sure I was balling my eyes out seconds before that picture of me holding up the “Happy Easter” sign was taken and that a big fight with my father saying, “Dry your eyes, brush your hair, you’re being silly, and we are trying to take a picture” occurred. But, you would have no idea looking at that photo taken of us, a cute brother and sister around 4 and 5- as seemingly happy, well-rounded, carefree children, but nothing could be further from the truth.

As I child of divorced parents, I learned a great deal about paradoxes at a very early age. I spent my childhood from the age of four up in two very different homes. My mother was very much “what you see is what you get”, and my father was very much “ keep up appearances regardless of how crappy things really are”. So, not only was my father into a big façade, he was also a defeatist by always looking at it as how crappy things are rather than things are pretty damn good all things considered! I had limited visitations with him as a child-every other weekend and one week night- and quite frankly, I was lucky for it. Had I had more time with him I doubt that my relationship with him would have been “closer” or more cohesive. As the years progressed I would probably have been more of rebel than I am and at a much earlier age than 12. That’s when I got messed up with the wrong crowd and drugs and I begged my Mother to send me away to school so I could basically leave my father.

I actually don’t think my father really wanted to even be a father, much less be married to a woman, but he thought that was what was “expected” to look good. It was all a façade and unreal as much as that hard plastic, human head-sized bunny mask…

All of it was for “show”.

I never really went to church as a child except on vacations with our father, to visit his family in North Carolina, because that was the “southern way” and it was certainly the way he was raised. My brother and I would be put on parade in our Sunday best clothes, which frankly were never “good enough”, and I would listen to my grandmother ask me, “What in the world does your  mother do- she lets you run around with holes and stains on your clothes? If she hadn’t left your father, you would have such beautiful clothes.” She would spend an exorbitant amount of money on “church” clothes, shoes, etc. that we would never use again (the Greenwich Village lifestyle did not support Sunday school best!).

Then she would parade my brother and me all over town “VISITING” her friends, berating our mother- “Well you should have seen how these two showed up!” We would dread Sunday when we would be dropped off early in our new, uncomfortable, stiff, imposter clothing to be a part of SUNDAY SCHOOL with a bunch of children that looked at us like we were aliens. And of course, we were! We didn’t know the hymns, the bible, the procedures or how Sunday School actually worked. It was awful. Then we would sit in church all lined up in a pew with my father and grandparents and act as if this were the most normal of situations.

I didn’t know my father was a homosexual or bisexual until after his death, when I was 18. I wouldn’t have cared if he was gay, purple or an alien, all I cared about was how he treated me. He didn’t treat me very well until the end of his life, and at that point it just felt like a “plea bargain” with “God” or the great “Beyond”. It was rather pathetic to me actually. I had great compassion that my father was sick, and I was grateful that it made him a “softer” human being, but I had little compassion for the mentality that now he was going to live his life a certain way because it felt as if he were making a bargaining chip with God-that if he found God perhaps his soul would be saved. This was not a true connection, a loving embrace, an opening of faith and trust, it was simply an act of fear.

One time, I remember my father being authentic. I was 16 and he came to my school in Massachusetts. We walked alone and ended up at the outside basketball court in front of my Senior English group.  He started crying and he leaned his head on my shoulder, sobbing and telling me he was afraid to die. I was flabbergasted, I had no idea who this creature was. I was just beginning my life and we did not have a relationship of intimacy. It was as if he wanted us to be something we never were. A part of me resented being told this burden- how the hell was I supposed to comfort him or even know what to say? The other part of me felt helpless and embarrassed, as I knew my schoolmates in senior English class- which contained my 3 best friends and my boyfriend- were all watching this scenario play out before them. It was one of them most awkward moments of my life.

My entire life I’ve had two things I simply have no tolerance for: defeatism and being unauthentic. Flash forward to the spring vacation when I was home the year I was 17. My father had visitation for Easter weekend and wanted to go to church. So I dressed in my Sunday Best, whatever that was, and I managed to find something suitable. We went to church- something we NEVER did in all my years in NYC- and as we sat in that pew and I pretended to know the verses of the songs and play along with the rest of the congregation, I realized that my father was so desperate to find some solace- but never did. He looked for everything from outside himself instead of going within and looking for his faith there. It was a feeble last attempt to be something he wasn’t because that was what was “expected”.

I spent my 18th year in New York City, after graduating high school in May, visiting my father while he was declining. In and out of hospitals and visits, while my 3 best friends and my boyfriend all rented a house in San Francisco and started going to college. My father and I made some sort of peace that summer, as much as you can cram a lifetime into less than a precious year, while his health slowly weakened and my resentment of not having my freedom and my young life with my friends in California grew. By October he was gone. I think he died peacefully in that he did not suffer too much physically, but I don’t think he ever found that “inner peace” or “faith” he strived so desperately to grasp in trying to find God -because I believe he always felt separate from God.

I realize now, in my adulthood, that soul growth comes with life experience, and my father’s fear of being who he was not only kept him separate from God, It kept him separate from everyone he loved, including me. I feel blessed that I have always, even as a small child, know that God = Love and love resides in me. I believe in Jesus as a great teacher and a healer and I felt his presence around me when I survived a grave illness last year and since my recovery he has never left me. I realize i kept the “traditional” Jesus separate from my own heart prior to this experience because I associated him with the fear and judgmental guilt ridden, limited church going days of my childhood and my father. Now I hold my father’s memory in my brave authentic heart and I can be authentic for both of us while he remains in my heart for safekeeping until we meet again. If Jesus can rise, I see no reason why we can’t either, so now I can celebrate Easter for what it has always been a glorious rebirth and the promise of a new beginning.

We have a radio show people!

Listen in on my new radio show!
Wednesdays on 12radio.com at 11am PST.

Earlier this year I had a lifesaving surgery. When I was discharged from the hospital, I was so enthusiastic to take life by the balls, in this case wings, that the universe decided I needed more time to rest and decided to give me an open wound the size of a tennis ball, right smack in the middle of my gut! It was a ghastly, unsightly, painful, persistent little bugger that had a nurse visiting my home for the next six weeks. It also required me to be on pain medication. So, when a new, amazing opportunity fell into my lap, I didn’t even get that it had been offered to me!

Radio AnnoucementIt turns out I had been offered my very own radio show! I clearly didn’t comprehend this. My friend, Jennifer, kept telling me Mark Husson was offering me the chance to have a show on 12Radio.com, and I should at least check it out (because it’s a Gemini New Moon and I have no idea what that means except for the fact that my friend Jenn is almost always right). Convinced Jenn was confused, I reluctantly reached out to Mark, and I was completely shocked when he told me to contact Kristi, who would be my producer. It took me nearly a week to contact her because I was absolutely convinced that when she did reply to my e-mail she was going to ask me, “Who the heck are you and what are you talking about?” Well, Kristi (my producer, GULP)! couldn’t have been more lovely or supportive. After our first phone meeting, I hung up the phone and felt like puking, which is usually a sign for me that I am doing the brave thing and exciting things will come of it.

What do you do when a radio show falls in your lap and you are building an army of angels? YOU SAY, “YES”. Sir Richard Branson says, “If someone offers you an amazing opportunity and you are not sure you can do it, say yes – then learn how to do it later.” So, um, later has arrived. Ay yi yi, and I’m learning as I’m going and I’m counting on you, yes, you! If you are reading this, I’m guessing you’ve found this somewhat interesting and are probably willing to read the rest if it doesn’t go on too long and get really boring!

So, like I mentioned I’m building an Army of Angels, not perfect heavenly angels, hell no! I’m looking for angels here on earth. You know, the kind that get up every day and try to do the best they can even though life keeps throwing a wrench at them? The reason I’m building this army of like-minded souls is simple. I am selfish, and I really can’t do this alone. I’ve spent the first 50 years of my life waiting until I was thin enough, brave enough, smart enough. While I was in the hospital waiting for my pathology report, I realized that waiting was exactly that, “waiting”, and it was a complete waste of time it. It accomplished nothing and it just left me, WAITING. I figure I’m about 80% good and 20% somewhat rotten (feel free to pick your own ratio) and that’s about as good as it is ever going to get! I’m learning to love myself, flaws and all, because I can’t wait anymore, and you know what? I’ll just DIE if on the day I die I’m not loving myself and I’m still waiting on myself to show up and do the brave thing. I realize this is not an easy thing to do, but I’ve run out of options because I simply can’t live with myself without learning how to love myself. How about you?

Here’s the secret I discovered in that hospital bed …..you are the “IT” in the shit and you should own it. So, I’ve started this movement called Angel with An Edge. I am on the edge. I’ve finally realized I will always be on the edge of something, and we are ALL on the edge of something. All for one and one for all! I mean where is that safe place where you can fall? I’m tired of the haters, and I’m sick of the judgments. I just want to live in a world of respect.

I’ve come to several conclusions…

  • I don’t have to like you, but I will respect you enough to agree to disagree.
  • Earth angels are all around us, and they show up in the most miraculous of ways and at perfect times.
  • It is my job to take care of me and your job to take care of you, but it’s nice to know you have an army of angels that have your back.
  • This world has fought and hated since man began, and we don’t seem to be any better off for it.

I believe there are two things worth fighting for: LOVE and PEACE. I have become a soldier of love and a warrior of peace. So, I’m not going to wait anymore. I’m just going to wing it and go for it and have faith that everything will fall into place!

I’m not reinventing the wheel. I get that this isn’t rocket science. I’ve heard a great deal from some “spiritual teachers” that, at least to me, seem to portray themselves as all good or too good to be true, and I’m just saying, “Let’s keep the real in the deal”. Think of my Angel With an Edge movement as an invitation, or an initiation, or even a recruitment, for your soul.

Please join me for the kickoff of my radio show starting this Wednesday, Sept. 9th on 12radio.com at 11am PST. I WANT YOU!!! I can’t tell you how much it would mean to me if you would consider listening and even calling in. Let me know how WE can keep our wings up and make this world we live in a better place, together, by building an army of angels that are perfectly imperfect.

– Elizabeth