Where Spirit Meets the Bone
Two years ago, I lost almost all of my hair after a lifesaving emergency surgery. It about killed me to cut it off. Truth be told, I didn’t have much of a choice. I know it doesn’t look that thin in the picture, but trust me, it took my very talented stylist Cheryl and a “village” of hairspray and other magical concoctions. YES, this is vanity but still, until you have your hair falling out of your head and you are waiting for a pathology report in a hospital bed after having a 54 pound contained cancerous tumor (which is actually your ovary) being taken from your body, you honestly have no idea how you are going to feel!
Here I am today with more hair than I ever imagined and a heart full of gratitude. And now, after my life was completely turned upside down, I have worked my way up to the top of it! I no longer push that boulder up the hill until it comes rolling back down after me. I follow the spiritual breadcrumbs. I had no idea I would lose nearly everything; my car, my artist-owned store, my career, my livelihood and some friends I dearly loved who could not handle my situation. I had no idea and no plan. All I knew was that I needed to survive, so I surrendered and allowed the universe to rise up and meet me.
We all have something to be grateful for. I am not sharing this story to tell you “I once caught a fish this big” and my story is really, really important. Everyone’s story is important! I am telling this story to give you hope and inspiration. Your life can change on the flip of a coin and NO-ONE gets out of here unharmed! I am not a victim, I am a voyager with a vision. I’ve been through some shit and I made it through! There is always something in life that will happen that you didn’t plan or expect. A wrench, a death, or an illness. It’s all about how we handle things. Everyone has their journey and everyone has a cross to bear. This was mine and I can truly say that my biggest burden became my biggest gift.
I can tell you this—there is always something to be grateful for—always. Even in my darkest hour, what got me through was my gratitude for my life, my brave beating heart and the nurses who took care of me. My gratitude for my Mother and my two aunts, who all battled breast cancer with such grace and dignity and my ability to draw strength from their journeys. They were blazing the trail for me, encouraging me from the “other side”. You have no idea how you will handle it. I had no idea that a little over a year later I would have to have another lifesaving surgery to put me back together again. I certainly never imagined that the second lifesaving surgery (about a year ago) would be even harder than the first in so many ways! So when I say, “The universe is conspiring for you”, it’s not an empty sentiment. It is not something I read on piece of paper from a fortune cookie. I believe it from where my spirit meets my bones, because these bones walked it.
I got to walk away (eventually) from something millions of people could not— including three women whom I loved dearly and ultimately lost. I honor them in my strength and my choice to constantly keep my heart open, allowing myself to be vulnerable and I listen. I listen to Spirit and my higher inner knowing because I’ve learned that Spirit has a much bigger knowing than I ever will. And now, looking back at this photo (which I was really not happy with at the time) I can say that I had the same haircut as Michelle Pfeiffer in Lady Hawk (a favorite movie) and I, too, went on a great adventure—and I lived. I may not look like her and I’m fine with that, too. I’m finally okay with looking like me and being me because I know of no other way to be. I’m also okay with growing old and aging and embracing every damn bit of it, because I know some pretty amazing goddesses who didn’t get that chance. It is a privilege.
It is my life’s path to help others feel hopeful, to help them find their juicy bits by being authentic and to lead by example. I want to show you how to keep your heart open and full of gratitude as much as you can in this lifetime because, this is it. No-One gets out of here unharmed, but the scars, heartbreak and growth are so worth it. I would never have become a psychic spiritual counselor or have a radio show or an amazing tribe of people if I had not walked in these shoes. But more importantly, and this is the BIGGY—I would have never realized what a precious gift I am and how I owe it to myself to learn to love myself through everything. We all do! Once I stopped planning and doing and making shit happen because I had no other choice, my world opened up in ways I still cannot believe. I actually do love my life. There are struggles, there is grief, there is pain, but there is so very much love in my heart for the world and especially for myself. Oh how grateful I am! All my love and keep your wings Up!
Elizabeth Lindsay is a clairvoyant spiritual light-warrior and counselor at www.12listen.com Elizabeth is a creative soul whose life journey and passion has evolved into helping others empower themselves. Elizabeth has the innate ability to tune in and tap into your spirit guides and energy to offer clear concise answers and tools that give you a fresh perspective as well as raise your vibration. Elizabeth’s goal is to always help you get unstuck, move forward and leave her company feeling confident in the knowing that you are honoring yourself and your soul’s growth. Be it a need for clearing a vibrational blockage, a quick answer, or an in-depth dive into the realms of possibilities she will help guide you into your personal power and strength